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 Posted: Nov 13, 2002 - 06:09 AM
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thank you everyone for your wonderful posts...I feel a little better knowing you all care.
This drives me crazy...every year it seems like my life is about to fall apart, then the year goes away and I laugh at how serious I was about my problems..then it starts up again. My emotions are like one big roller coaster. I'm seriously wondering if I have, what is it called...bi polar personality. I'm sure I'm not manic depressive. I'm able to conceal most of it when I'm around others. I'm not over the wall or anything, but inside, I feel like screaming at times.
Most of my problems is that I'm so tired of school that I find myself finding every excuse in the book not to go to class, and as a consequence, I'm overworked with projects to be completed. I don't do this intentionally, I think it's a subconscious thing, like when I wake up in the morning, I don't even remember hitting the alarm, but next thing I know, it's almost noon and I've missed my classes...I really don't mean to do it, it just happens. My sleeping problems stem from both insomnia and the fact that I work until 11pm, and it takes me hours to wind down. That's why I'm in here now...otherwise I'd just be laying in bed, staring at the ceiling for four hours.
Everything thing that's going wrong right now is completely my fault, and that makes it even worse. I'm very vunerable to guilt swings. I feel guilty about every little thing I do wrong, and it builds up! I even feel guilty when other people get into trouble. I have so much remorse pent up, it makes things worse. I've always been like that. I'm too hard on myself, yet I feel like I'm not hard enough. Then it gets to be too much and I lock myself away from everything and everyone.
As far as the Star Trek thing is concerned...I do spend more time on that then I do my other hobbies, but I am able to pull myself away from it to get the essential things done. I don't consider myself "Obsessed", but I have found that, since getting interested in it, most other shows just don't look that appealing anymore. I actually think that's quite funny, considering how cheesy some of the episodes are! 
Again, thank you all for your kind words...I do talk with my parents about things like this...but I need to see them, hold them, cry on their shoulders.
You guys are the best!
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Posted: Nov 13, 2002 - 06:19 AM
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I'm seriously wondering if I have, what is it called...bi polar personality. I'm sure I'm not manic depressive. I'm able to conceal most of it when I'm around others. I'm not over the wall or anything, but inside, I feel like screaming at times.
Um, Michelle....Please read this-
What is BiPolar Disorder?
(Manic Depression)
What is Manic Depression?
Manic depression involves wide mood alterations, with periods of both depression and mania. A person experiencing depression or mania may have intense mood swings and consequent changes in thinking and behaviour. The term that is professionally used for this illness is Bipolar Affective Disorder. Bipolar means sharing two poles (high and low) and Affective Disorder means a disorder having to do with mood.
What Causes Manic Depression and Who Are The People At Risk?
The cause is not known. Any person can develop manic depression, however, studies indicate that highly creative, sensitive people, people tending to be perfectionists and high achievers, have a higher incidence of bipolar affective disorder. Although biological factors seem to play a major role in producing the illness, a person's personality make up and or stresses in the environment may also play a part in bringing on an acute episode.
How Many People Are Affected and What Are The Symptoms?
It is estimated that 1% of the population will have a manic depressive illness. Environmental factors such as death, separation and divorce may trigger the disorder. The illness manifests itself with the individual experiencing episodes of mania or elation followed by low mood or depression. The number of manic and depressive episodes varies greatly from person to person and most individuals experience "normal" periods between their manic and depressive episodes.
Manic depression can send a person plunging from a high state, where one may believe one has superhuman energy and abilities, into a pit of despair, where it may seem as if the only way out is suicide. In fact, however, there are very effective treatments available. The symptoms of depression and mania are described separately:
Depressive state:
The chief symptom is a sad, despairing mood, which may be
accompanied by some or all of the following, depending on
the severity of the illness:
-lack of energy
-sleep problems where a person may sleep too much or too little
-loss of interest in work, family and friends
-change in eating habits
-preoccupation with failures and inadequacies
-loss of self-esteem
-feelings of guilt
-excessive concern about physical complaints
-decreased sexual drive
-crying easily, suicidal and occasional homicidal thoughts
Manic State: A person feels total "euphoria" and strength.
However, in the early stages of the illness, the person may appear
to be more sociable, active, talkative, self-confident, perceptive,
and creative than usual. As his/her mood elevates, he or she may
experience some or all of the following:
-increased stength and energy, decreased sleep
-extreme irritability
-rapid, unpredictable emotional changes
-racing thoughts, flight of ideas
-increased interest in activities, overspending
-grandiosity, inflated self-esteem
-increased sexual drive
-poor judgment
What Are The Treatments?
There is no real cure for manic depression at present, but through the use of monitored medication programs it is possible to smooth out and reduce the frequency of the highs and the lows, and in some cases episodes may be altogether prevented. Some factors that determine the type of treatment care the nature of the symptoms and also the number of previous episodes, severity and duration of the illness and previous response to treatments. Counselling and therapy can be helpful. Self help support groups can be very beneficial. Whatever the recommended treatment, it is important to be informed. If you are not certain about treatment, ask questions.
Where Can I Go For Help?
Remember you are not alone. Reaching out for help and knowing where to go for positive support can help to make a person recover from their negative state of crisis. You may want to contact your family doctor,
Source for this information was a CMHA Fact Sheet
Professional Clincian's Thesaurus 3 Definition of Bipolar Disorder |
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Posted: Nov 13, 2002 - 06:29 AM
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Well, if that's the case, then it's safe to say that I'm definately suffering from severe depression...which I think I've known for a while. My mother and I share many characteristics and, unfortunately, depression is one of them. My mother tried to commit suicide twice during my freshman year of highschool (that was the worst year of my life). I've never tried...but I've come very close. I remember a time (and this is going to sound silly b/c I know this stuff wouldn't have actually killed me) when I was sitting at home, alone (this was last year actually), and I was getting ready to take a tylenol PM. Well, when I tried to get one out, the entire bottle full fell into my hand. I actually considered just taking all of them. Knowing it wouldn't do much to me, I just put them back, but I was so scared knowing that I had that small hesitation.
Anyway, as far as manic depression goes...I show some of the symptoms, but I don't think it's as severe as manic depression...I believe there is an inbetween...but I don't recall the name.
Thank you for the information, LIttleStar. It's appreciated.
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Posted: Nov 13, 2002 - 06:41 AM
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Michelle, please get some professional help...if you'd broken your leg, you wouldn't hesitate, would you?
Sometimes, we're just in situations that we can't cope with on our own..when my mother was dying of bone cancer, I took Prozac and it certainly helped me get on with the rest of my life. I must admit, I still take it on and off, and it still helps.
BTW, not having a degree is not the end of the world. My sister-in-law hated her first college course, came home, got a job, worked at that for 4 years, then went back to university.
There are solutions to most things, you know.
Please talk to your parents,
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Posted: Nov 13, 2002 - 03:47 PM
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| Paul wrote: | Michelle,
Trust me this isn't something to get that upset over. Many college students don't have a clue what they want to study and having to spend an extra year or two in college will give you a chance to explore other classes in other disciplines that you may not have had a chance to explore during a 4 year track.
Many schools over services where you can talk to someone about this. I'm sure you'll find that you are absolutely not alone in this. Also talk it over with your advisor. You may be able to get into a more General Business concentration without any more additional time (Economics is a strong discipline for many business courses so they classes you have taken WILL help you.)
And always feel free to vent here. I think you just need someone at school to give you a different perspective on where you are at - it looks imposing but my guess is that once you see it through a different frame it won't look as bad as you currently think.
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I think the world needs art. You might get an art degree and be able to do anything. Economics is mostly a bullshit field. The great Shatner has a performing art degree and I have a comercial art degree.
So you switch your major back to music and your done in less than a year. Get a job working somethint you hate or maybe a job in a band.
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Posted: Nov 13, 2002 - 04:07 PM
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One tea spoon of 'backing soda' to an 8 oz of water does wonders; It balances your ph and the out come 
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